Monday, January 28, 2013


working three jobs
- swim school 8am - 3pm
-swimming coach at primary school 3pm-7pm
- cook, cleaner, maid.... 8pm or until the chores are done

so far haven't made a cent

and my ears hurt

for what exactly?

for W

so that he cant say i'm lazy, so that I don't have to ask him for things I need, so that I can contribute

but the price I am paying is astronomical

my sanity, health, peace of mind, soundness of soul... they get chipped away at every day

I want to stomp around in the daisies ~ sigh

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Doing things

Now that we finally have a car again its so lovely to say, lets do ________ thing.
Plus the car has lots of lovely icy cold aircon air!! the heat and humidity is enough to make anyone cranky, and I have been on crank alert for days now, my temper is short, my patience is zero, I am having very mean and horrible and selfish thoughts, feeling very hard done by
but why?
hormones? hard work? stress?
probably a bit of it all

I really don't feel "understood" by anyone

we went for a drive to the South of Durban, some people from W's work have joined a paintball league, he wants to join but I said lets first go see what it is like, what the set up is, what the people are like... before putting down another fortune in TOYS
(yip, that also makes me mad and cranky!)
they were very well organized, friendly and it seemed a fun atmosphere
I could happily sit under a big tree with my kindle while he shoots stuff... or join in.... maybe shooting the **** out of something will relive some stress?

we then finally got to do something I have been wanting to do for ages.... go to the Durban Natural Science Museum. I know the Cape Town one like the back of my hand, and spent many a happy day in London's

will do a post a bout the interior another day, and share more pics from architecture outside
but look how pretty...

just regular old happy snaps....
would love to have the time to play with filters
will put it on my To Do List for the week
oh heck its almost Monday morning!
I have to sleep!

Saturday, January 26, 2013

a girl's gotta talk

recently inspired by a friend's reflective daily writings, I think I'd like to get some more of "me" down.
maybe I will see things more clearly, maybe I will more easily count my blessings, maybe the universe will send kindness and understanding my way, maybe it will just make me feel better

today I worked, fell asleep waiting for hubby to make me a cup of coffee, woke up from hour nap, read latest issue of Readers Digest...

* note to self: Sugar is Poison to your system!

...and I have spent the last 4 hours sending my CV to every recruiting agency, private school, government depart, museum, library and science center in the greater Durban area....

looking for work is in itself a full time job

in the back of my mind though all I want to do is walk a dog! my puppy craving is getting bad.

this beautiful image is from HearvestHeart